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28 June 2006 @ 11:36 am
Today, I saw a corpse.
Okay, I didn't really see see it and people are dying everyday and all that jazz, but still, it really shook me.
I was on my way to work, when there was suddenly a traffic jam (I have to take the freeway and still it takes me 45 minutes to get to work each day) and as usually, I was pissed because of the holdup. I heard on the radio that there had been an accident and that 2 of 3 lines were blocked. I pass accidents every other day (this particular freeway is really accident-prone) and you start to not really care about it, you know? Maybe you see a really trashed car and you think 'holy shit', but that's about it. I still drive too fast and the accidents are merely holdups and inconvenient. But today, When I passed the accident (the car didn't even look that bad), I saw a corpse lying next to the car. They had covered the person with a white sheet, but it already had bled through and there really was no mistaking. I drove by so close, I could have touched the body without getting out of the car. I know it's awful, but my first thought was 'why the hell haven't they already taken the body away?'. They had already cleaned up everything, so why was the body still there? And then, I felt so bad, because this was a dead person and I was troubled because I had to deal with seeing that, pissed they hadn't already gotten rid of it so I could keep my peace of mind. This was a person once, probably, just like me, on his or her way to work. Like all of us used to the heatwave and surprised by the bad weather, the rain and fog, we have today.
While intellectually I know that people can get hurt or even die in traffic accidents, I always just thought of the car repair, the costs, the trouble, because I've never been in a serious accident, never knew anyone who was in a serious accident, and whenever I drive past an accident, all I see it broken cars. Seeing the body made it real.